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It is what it is.
I despise that kind of blanket statement that explains nothing. I have to tear things apart and get inside them and figure out why. For God's sake, WHY? Why oh why do we have to endure things in this life, on this journey. The undesirable things. Why do we develop self defeating behaviors, why can we not see out of our own dilemma?
The enemy forces are lined up on our borders. We're surrounded and we keep doing what we do. Peril is at every turn, barely held off by some invisible force and we survive to struggle another day, another week...
Enough to dig the hole deeper. Enough to weaken the levy, until...
It's inevitable. I don't like it. I don't like that it's going to happen and there's nothing I can do about it.
Maybe it's another control issue... I have.
Maybe it's an opportunity to surrender... my will... and see... there is a plan... and it's better than mine.
It's not bad to want to help, but oh how we don't, we enable... prolong... the inevitable.
We stave off the gift, the lesson learned in reaping what we've sown. The reward of enduring and seeing...
the gift of Prevenient Grace.
I'm feeling, I'm learning, I'm beginning to understand the depth of empathy, concern, caring and pain of parenthood... (a fraction of what my Mama has endured) but I'm getting a taste.
The wanting to help, yet understanding that the prodigal must go his way and find himself.
And I must be prepared for the return... to run into the field, no questions asked and embrace him.
In the mean time, as I endure the daily pain, I can only pray and surrender deeper and deeper into the unfathomable comfort of God's most excellent way.
The endless supply of Understanding, Love and Acceptance and give thanks for where I am...
in consideration of where I came from.
ALL Promises Kept!
I give Thanks.
I lean on you more and more God to help me leave it in your hands and do the only thing you ever asked me to do.
TRUST
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It is what it is.
I despise that kind of blanket statement that explains nothing. I have to tear things apart and get inside them and figure out why. For God's sake, WHY? Why oh why do we have to endure things in this life, on this journey. The undesirable things. Why do we develop self defeating behaviors, why can we not see out of our own dilemma?
The enemy forces are lined up on our borders. We're surrounded and we keep doing what we do. Peril is at every turn, barely held off by some invisible force and we survive to struggle another day, another week...
Enough to dig the hole deeper. Enough to weaken the levy, until...
It's inevitable. I don't like it. I don't like that it's going to happen and there's nothing I can do about it.
Maybe it's another control issue... I have.
Maybe it's an opportunity to surrender... my will... and see... there is a plan... and it's better than mine.
It's not bad to want to help, but oh how we don't, we enable... prolong... the inevitable.
We stave off the gift, the lesson learned in reaping what we've sown. The reward of enduring and seeing...
the gift of Prevenient Grace.
I'm feeling, I'm learning, I'm beginning to understand the depth of empathy, concern, caring and pain of parenthood... (a fraction of what my Mama has endured) but I'm getting a taste.
The wanting to help, yet understanding that the prodigal must go his way and find himself.
And I must be prepared for the return... to run into the field, no questions asked and embrace him.
In the mean time, as I endure the daily pain, I can only pray and surrender deeper and deeper into the unfathomable comfort of God's most excellent way.
The endless supply of Understanding, Love and Acceptance and give thanks for where I am...
in consideration of where I came from.
ALL Promises Kept!
I give Thanks.
I lean on you more and more God to help me leave it in your hands and do the only thing you ever asked me to do.
TRUST
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